Have a Cluckety Cluck Cluck Day. ;-)

I'm feeling a little better today. It's been snowing all weekend but none of it has actually stuck to the ground but I like to just watch the snow rather than see it stick to the ground. It's quite peaceful. Getting back to what happened yesterday: There's this saying in my family from the bible that has been passed down for generations: don't borrow from tomorrow. Guess I jumped the gun a little.

First off I just want to say that NOTHING BAD HAPPENED! What did happen was, and this is gonna sound real strange, everyone was being nice to me. In my past experience when I start contributing to things or when people start to be nice to me other people get jealous and pissed off at me leaving me to cry my eyes out over something that was out of my control and when I didn't do anything wrong.

I have all these Lost episodes on tape(I can't afford TiVO right now, waaaahhh!!!) and my favorite so far this season is "Everybody Hates Hugo." I identified so much with him in that episode because of this speech he gives that's intercut with his flashbacks of the aftermath of him winning the Lottery. He was put in charge of the food inside the hatch and was supposed to ration all the food and everyone was getting mad at him for not letting them have one thing or another so he decides to blow it up. Rose catches him and he gives her this speech:
"I'm sorry but I can't let it happen again...you don't get it, this is gonna mess it all up... let me tell ya something Rose, we were all fine before we had any..potato chips. But now we got these potato chips and everyone's gonna want 'em. So Steve gets them, Charlie's pissed, but he's not pissed at Steve, he's pissed at me. And I'm gonna be in the middle of it. And then it's gonna be what about us? why didn't i get any potato chips? Come on, help us out hurley, why'd ya give kate the shampoo? And why didn't I get the peanut butter? Then they'll get really mad and start asking why does Hugo have everything? Why should he get to decide? Then they'll all hate me. I don't know what to do."

But in the end Rose talks him out of not blowing up the food and Hurley decides to just give all the food to everyone at once since in reality they only had enough to feed one person for about three months and it results in a very beautiful end sequence with everyone gathered around the fire eating the hatch food and communing.

Anyway, what this all means is Mikey, you became my Rose. I'm not saying you're a heavy set black woman in her 50's, I'm saying you helped me see that having something to give is not a bad thing and there is a way to give without people getting pissed off or jealous which is what I was afraid of. I panicked and you helped me by doing nothing more than talking to me. I'm not trying to embarrass you but thank you.

And I hope Jorge Garcia gets an emmy for that speech.

I need some sleep....